Cleansing Me

Time to FACE THE MUSIC!!!! Well here’s a recap of the past few days!! Day 11 was a great cleansing day, emotionally not good, but I made it through. The afternoon of Day 12 is when things went down hill and now I’m looking real stupid. Well Friday night (Day 12) was pretty scary. I think I shocked my body when I used food to cure my emotional breakdown. Well, I was sick as a dog and a numbness occurred from my pinky and ring finger up along that side of my left forearm. I had a massive headache and the comforting feeling that food usually gives me during my emotional bouts didn’t emerge. So, I was left with physical pain and the emotional pain never went away. A huge lesson learned!! How do I feel right now? I feel like Sh*t!! I knew going into this that the toughest part would be having to deal with a lot of deeply rooted issues. I keep on pulling the weeds out and they grow more and more. I really need to stay in seclusion a bit longer. I can’t allow myself to be put in another predicament. I fell hard and even though I still feel emotionally crappy, I have to pick myself up, dust myself off and try again. I have to do my Week 2 video for You Tube, which will be done once I get new batteries for my digital camera. A new day a new beginning.

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