Cleansing Me

Yes, yes, yes!!! I have completed 2 full weeks and 1 day of the Master Cleanser! I have 3 more weeks and 6 days left to go. Thus far, this is the longest I’ve ever lasted on the cleanse. I’m looking forward to when it’s over. Do not think for one second I plan on living on this! The lemonade taste good but it’s not that damn good. After the come off stage I will be starting “The Fat Burning Diet”by Jay Robb, Clinical Nutritionist and Certified Fitness Trainer with over 20 years experience. The program is very good and balanced and I can’t wait to start it. I haven’t been hungry but I have an urge just to chew something. A friend said that I had an oral fixation which could be very true. This has been extremely hard to do and all I can say is I just have to take it has the days go by. Some days are smooth and others are really hard to get through, like today and I can’t turn to what I normall turn too for comfort because I can’t. So trying to deal with days like this have been difficult, but so far so good and I’m still on track. just 1 short month and I will have completed the detox portion of my journey successfully. I start swimming again on Monday when the pool re-opens and I’m excited about that. My weight has been going back and forth  the same pound so that’s been annoying me the past few days. I need to increase my water intake because I feel a bit dry if that makes any sense. My tongue looks a hot mess and my sense of smell is too much to handle right now. I will say this, my skin feels and looks so good. Completely soft and smooth and no more dry scalp issues. So, I’m 1/3 through the process and all is good. Take care and happy cleansing.

Fitness, Food, MC Daily Log, My thoughts

Soooo I’m surfing the net today to find healthy recipes for when I do start eating again and I came across this really cool website Good Earth Natural Foods (<- click). First and foremost I’m loving their Calorie Burner Calculator (<- click) better than Calories Per Hour because their results say that I burned 1,504.5 calories from my 75 min.  moderate 26 freestlye laps. But besides that, they have a great Reference Library (<- click) where you can:

• Research a health concern that is of interest to you.

• Find information on herbs.

• Find information on supplements.

• Search an index of remedies (drugs) by brand and product names.

• Research drug depletions.

• Read descriptions of alternative modalities, (treatment options).

You should definitely check out the Delicious Living (<- click) section, the have a lot of recipes, most with pictures ( I love pictures) and some very good articles about common health problems like allergies and solutions for them. Just check out the site and go through the different departments listed. Thought I’d share, enjoy!!

Fitness, Food, My thoughts

Today is definitely going to be a long, sleepy day!! My tummy hurts sooooooooo bad right now and it has nothing to do with the cleanse. I haven’t even done my SWF yet. My monthly visitor showed up this morning and has already overstayed her welcome!! Don’t get me wrong, I’m very grateful that I do have a monthly visitor! I will admit there were a couple of months when I was begging for her to pay me a visit. Jumped up and sang, “Glory, Hallelujah!” when she finally did! But geez, does it have to be so painful?

Ever since I was 10 I’ve been suffering the consequences of Eve’s infamous act. I mean, come on!! All of this suffering for an apple! I don’t even like apples that much. I’d probably go through this for two juicy, sweet, succulent mangoes, but not for no measly apple!! My visits have always been long, painful, heavy and extremely irregular.  My doctor put me on birth control a couple of years ago to regulate my cycle and I stopped taking it after a year because it was doing nothing for me. I also think it was the cause of an auto immune disease I ended up getting. Thankfully that’s gone now, but it wasn’t until last summer when I found relief for my menstrual woes. I was looking for a colon cleanser that was easy to take because trying to down a glass of psyllum husk before it foams up your throat was not cute at all!! So I went to my local health food store and came across an internal cleanse especially for women. It’s called Women’s Renew Internal Cleansing System made by Yerba Prima. It’s a blend of 35 herbs and fiber and it was amazing. I was just looking to cleanse my colon, but it was so much more than that.  I noticed that after I did the cleanse my monthly visits were 3 days long instead of 7, painless and light. More importantly it comes at the exact same time every month. I’ve recommended it to several friends and they all came back completely ecstatic. I would take it again, now that the cramping is back, but I can’t while I’m on the MC. I just hope that I have to suffer for 2 more days instead of 6.

Cleansing Products, My thoughts, Women's Health

I’m sitting here curled up on my sofa trying to go through all the files on my laptop and do some spring cleaning there. The other day I just about died when a blue screen appeared saying there was some defect found and blah, blah, blah. I logged in again in safe mode to try to see if I could figure out what was wrong. A friend suggested that I do a Disk Clean Up and a Disk Defragmenter, something  that I have never done in the 4 yrs. I’ve had my laptop.  How was I suppose to know? My whole life is on here so the thought of losing all of that information was really making me sick. So I did what she said and by the time I was done watching Step Up and The Lake House(including all the Special Features) the defragmenting was done. I restarted my PC with all of my fingers crossed and Yippeeee my Welcome screen appeared!!

Well, this morning I turned on my PC and the blue screen appeared again with the same message. I did the same thing again, this time the defragging part didn’t take so long and everything is fine, but now I’m afraid to turn off my laptop. So I’ve been going through my files deleting the ones I don’t need any more and backing up the ones I do on CDs. It’s been annoying, but I feel like if I don’t do it now before I try to fix this problem, I’ll lose a lot of important documents. I’m a recent graduate and a lot of my blood, sweat, and tears lives in my laptop, plus work related documents and personal stuff like photos and my recordings that you can’t get back once they’re gone.

As I’m going through this I realize that I hold on to things that should have been deleted a long time ago. Then I take a second to look at the stuff  in my living-room and again symbols of me holding on to junk are everywhere:

• A gift bag of old mail sits next to my desk.
• A box of unwanted items that was given to me last year when a friend was moving.
• A purse full of gift cards that I have yet to use dating back so long that I’m embarrassed to say.

And the list goes on….. and that’s just the living-room. I haven’t even gotten to the clothes that I haven’t worn in years or that favorite shoe of mine that broke and I’m still holding on to it, for what? Why do we hold on to things we don’t need? If it’s not serving a purpose why keep it? I guess that could also apply to the  mental junk we hold on to inside, or a person in your life that’s just a pain to be around who always has something negative to say. It’s just not necessary, you know. I know, “easier said than done”, but it’s something that we should think about. One thing at a time, so let me get back to getting my laptop in order and finding a solution to my log in problem. 

My thoughts

It only made sense that my first post be titled this, because that’s what this site is all about. This is extremely scary for me to do, but it’s something that I MUST DO! We all want to put our best foot forward, show our strengths and hide our weaknesses. It’s just human nature! Nobody wants to broadcast their faults because that would just be plain stupid.

Plain and simple, there are somethings about my life that I’m not happy with and I’m just trying to change the ones that I can and learn to live with the ones that I can’t.  I know it’s not going to happen over night, because that would be too easy and we all know that life is not easy.

So, this is how I plan on beginning my journey to a better me, a toxic free me, a cleaner me, a happy me: I plan on using  this summer to detoxify as much of my life as possible. Kind of like a spring cleaning for my insides. I am one of the many, many obese individuals that exists out there. Looking back on it now, I know exactly when and why I started gaining weight subconsciously at 12.  It was one of the many ways I dealt with the personal issues going on in my life. We all have issues and some of us turn to drugs, alcohol, work, sex, food and a host of other things to deal with them in order to get through another day. I need to approach this “self re-hab” so drastically because I have been lying to myself for sooooo long that I don’t trust myself to really work on this part of my life without sabotaging my efforts. I could go on and on, believe me I’m a gemini, but I’ll spare you the details and get to the point.

So here it goes, my journey to pink: Starting today I’ll be detoxifying my body doing The Master Cleanser for almost the entire summer, 100 days to be exact. I have my reasons which I will explain later or make up a page to explain. I will be keeping a detailed daily log of this and a weekly summary that I’ll broadcast on You Tube. I can’t believe I’m doing this. I know once I hit publish there’s no turning back that’s why I have to do this!! Maybe the fear of looking like a complete fool will keep me from sabotaging myself this time while I learn to trust myself again.

My thoughts, Relationships