Cleansing Me

  “I’m Gonna Make A Change,
For Once In My Life
It’s Gonna Feel Real Good,
Gonna Make A Difference
Gonna Make It Right . . .”

                                                                               Michael Jackson

I’m Ready!! I know for certain that I’m finally ready to embark on this 30 Day Cleansing  Journey. My herbal laxative tea is brewing as I write this post. Since last year it’s been a start/stop situation  and I couldn’t for the life of me figure out why I couldn’t complete the cleanse like I did once before. Then I realized that the emotional issues I’ve been dealing with were the reasons why I couldn’t stay focused, not just on the cleanse but in every  aspect of my life. My mind was cluttered with too much baggage and I had a hard time preparing my lessons for my students/classes, practicing and preparing for my performances. I’ve been seeing a therapist to help me deal with my emotional issues and so far so good. I’ve decided not to participate in any performances this summer so that I could finally work on “ME”; the mental ME, Emotional ME & the Physical ME!!

At the heart of ALL of my current problems is how F*d Up my Mental ME is! I know I shouldn’t be cursing, but the reality is that the Mental ME is pretty F*d Up and if I want to truly and fully enjoy my life then I need to deal witht the issues that have been plaguing me since my childhood. When I started this blog in 2007 I said the hardest part of this cleansing process would be the mental aspect and I was right. Ideally one would think I’d focus on fixing the Mental ME first then work on the Physical ME, but I don’t know how long it’s going to take for  the Mental ME to get with the program so I’m doing everything simultaneously. Hopefully that will expedite the process of me FINALLY being FREE! Free from the shadow beliefs and the negativity that put me in the position to hide my true self under layers and layers of  fat. This cleanse is so much more than losing weight for me. Yes, I will be monitoring the changes in my body and how the Master Cleanser will help me cure my current ailments; dermatitis, obesity, hypertension, edema, discoid lupus, glaucoma, but having to work on my emotional issues and the traumatic experiences I’ve suppressed for years without the ability to turn to food as a source of comfort is where my struggle lies.

Now I’m drinking my herbal tea… so raise whatever glass you have in your hand for a toast, if you don’t have anything go get some water !

Here’s to starting with that Man/Woman in the mirror!!

And asking Him/Her to Make That Change!

If You Wanna Make YOUR World a Better Place… Take a Look at YOURSELF and MAKE THAT CHANGE!! Cheers!! :) 

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It only made sense that my first post be titled this, because that’s what this site is all about. This is extremely scary for me to do, but it’s something that I MUST DO! We all want to put our best foot forward, show our strengths and hide our weaknesses. It’s just human nature! Nobody wants to broadcast their faults because that would just be plain stupid.

Plain and simple, there are somethings about my life that I’m not happy with and I’m just trying to change the ones that I can and learn to live with the ones that I can’t.  I know it’s not going to happen over night, because that would be too easy and we all know that life is not easy.

So, this is how I plan on beginning my journey to a better me, a toxic free me, a cleaner me, a happy me: I plan on using  this summer to detoxify as much of my life as possible. Kind of like a spring cleaning for my insides. I am one of the many, many obese individuals that exists out there. Looking back on it now, I know exactly when and why I started gaining weight subconsciously at 12.  It was one of the many ways I dealt with the personal issues going on in my life. We all have issues and some of us turn to drugs, alcohol, work, sex, food and a host of other things to deal with them in order to get through another day. I need to approach this “self re-hab” so drastically because I have been lying to myself for sooooo long that I don’t trust myself to really work on this part of my life without sabotaging my efforts. I could go on and on, believe me I’m a gemini, but I’ll spare you the details and get to the point.

So here it goes, my journey to pink: Starting today I’ll be detoxifying my body doing The Master Cleanser for almost the entire summer, 100 days to be exact. I have my reasons which I will explain later or make up a page to explain. I will be keeping a detailed daily log of this and a weekly summary that I’ll broadcast on You Tube. I can’t believe I’m doing this. I know once I hit publish there’s no turning back that’s why I have to do this!! Maybe the fear of looking like a complete fool will keep me from sabotaging myself this time while I learn to trust myself again.

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